In the lack of anything interesting or important to write I figured I’d do a general “whats been going on with me” post.I’ve been a busy mage… I’m not sure when I started using that word. It was never a conscious decision, it just snuck into my vocabulary when referring to myself. However, it seems to fit better than anything else right now. It feels… Right. Now you can call yourself anything you like. The question is can you bring the goods? Well lets just say, I’m working on it.
As mentioned in the past few posts I’ve been working on RO’s, The Black Work course. I’ve been busy making my planetary talismans, but also doing a lot of evocation work. I’ve been undergoing initiation into the 4 elemental spheres, working with the 4 archangels and the 4 princes of the elements. I’ve had some “wow” evocation moments, and a lot of subdued non-spectacular but none the less equally powerful results too. What I did notice was how my life reflected these initiation periods during their proceedings.
My plans are to continue on with this. Here’s what I have planned in the near future:
- I finally figured out my good and evil genius names. First I plan to make contact with my good Genius (hopefully this week).
- Then I plan to bind my Evil Genius and the 4 princes hostile to the elements in lead. First I need some steel to engrave their names on though.
- I want to forge a greater connection to Kammeal and the sphere of Mars, my ruling sphere.
- I want to summon each elemental archangel again and request elemental familiars.
- I plan to summon each planetary angel in turn on the appropriate day/hour to ask them to formally concencrate my talismans.
- I have a major “campaign” I’m working on magically that I plan to kick off on the upcoming new moon, using a strategic sorcery approach. I’ve also made a sigil shoal I plan to charge then all at once. I’ll be asking Elubatel for help again on this front since it’s a large, life direction type of goal. One of my sigils already manifested this weekend before even charging, so I’m taking that as a good sign.
- I plan to start on the White Work and begin Liber Semekh to attain K&C with my HGA after all this is done. Or maybe during. I’ll see what my Good Genius says 🙂 Why wait, ya know?
So I’ve got tons to work on magically coming up to keep me busy-busy. I’m also continuing my exploration of the NAP, and am taking Jason Millers new Strategic Self course. I’m only 2 lessons in but I’m finding it very challenging so far
Now I’ve been enjoying the hell out of Hermetic magic. It’s really been quelling that itch for me. I think much of my past struggling was due to my longing for initiation. I don’t mean initiation into a group, but initiation from the spirits. This is very much filling the bill.I’m not sure if it’s Hermetics itself, or finally undergoing these initiations, having direction, or doing the work that it doing it for me. I assume that Hermetics will become a part of my path for a long time to come.
However, I’m not keen to leave Hekate behind or my chthonic roots. Hermetics is filling the solar side I need, but without my grounding in the “earthier” lunar Witchcrafty side I know I won’t be happy for long. I need both. I also plan to continue my explorations of the PGM and Chaldean oracles. I know it all connects together eventually. The Chaldean Oracles is considered a Neo-Platonic document which of course leads right into Hermetics.
Eventually all roads lead to and from Hekate (I have this image of her as the anthropomorphic representation of Steven Kings Dark Tower).
It’s all too much to do at once however. Maybe I’ll give The Unlikely Mage’s approach a try?
This past week has also found me longing for the old Chaos Magic days, again. I would still love to have one banner under which to fit all this into. I said in that old article the following:
Some times, when I’m struggling the most with whatever system I’m working in I secretly wonder if inside I’m just an old chaos mage who got so immersed in a particular paradigm that he simply forgot he was chaos mage.
I still wonder that. There are things that I greatly miss about Chaos Magic. There are things that I don’t miss too. There has to be a reason my mind keeps periodically going back to it though, with increasing frequency. Every once in awhile I take out all my old materials and sigh wistfully, clearly longing to re-connect with something somewhere there, and also repelled at the same time.
One positive strength I believe the CM approach has ingrained in me is suspicion of any formal cosmology. I can interact with all the gods and spirits, and I believe they are real, something external to my own mind. However whenever I see a cosmology that says “this is the way it is” it feels confining and I always think “no it’s really not”. I think models are great to have but are ultimately limiting. This is why I stopped calling myself a Pagan. I just could not fit within the cosmology anymore (even though I still firmly believe in all of the gods). Whatever great universal truth is out there I think is far beyond our comprehension, and one of the strengths of CM, that draws me still, is maintaining that sense of wonder in the face of unknowable. Not random belief, but flexibility of belief, for me is the key.
Last week I had a dream I was reading a (fictitious dream created) book called “New Millennium Chaos Magic“. It had two halves. The first half was written in red ink and detailed the primal, shamanic magics. The second half was written in blue ink and detailed high magic and celestial initiations (I’d really love to read this book by the way)! It struck me very much as a symbolic book of my own magical practice.
I was very please to see Jason Millers start on a series of post-chaos magic articles. Let’s just say, if there’s going to be a post-chaos magic renaissance going on, I want in on it. I really hope this kind of thinking takes off. I really hope this becomes a “thing”. If there are mages out there working to bring this fruit to bear, I want to be a part of it.