Obligatory Disclaimer: I debated long and hard if I should write about this stuff. I always try to stick close to the concept of honesty on this blog and really just speak from the source. I’m not out to make this a blog about any one particular path or impress anyone or make myself out to be anything other than I am (i.e. often confused and feeling around in the dark). I really blog for two reasons: Write about stuff I’m passionate about (ie magic) and document all the many twists and turns on my own path, of which there have been many!
So I’m not sure if this whole working towards the Supernatural Assistant goal is considered “too personal” to write about because I don’t see much written about it from a personal perspective, but I’ve learned so much by reading others general experiences, and I kind of wish I could find more accounts of this kind of thing to read about, so I’m going to write about my experience unapologetically. Too personal be damned. So there. <nod>.
The Solar Initiation
I spent the month preparing, praying to the First Father daily to fortify myself. For two weeks before the rite I began courting Michael by setting aside some time daily during the hour of the sun to say the Prayer of St.Michael and meditate on his seal and sigil.
Saint Michael the Archangel,
defend us in battle;
be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray:
and do thou, O Prince of the heavenly host,
by the power of God,
thrust into hell Satan and all the evil spirits
who prowl about the world seeking the ruin of souls.
I began the preparation an hour early. I started out with various prayers to the First Father followed by a prayer and offering to my good Genius, who’s candle was burning throughout the ritual.
I did a meditation of where I’ve been magically and spiritually. I saw myself as a child just staring out, and all the various paths I’ve explored in my life thus far, both light and dark. I thought about my recent work in Hermetics and what it took to get to this point. I contemplated what exactly it I was that I was about to do, and felt that I had earned the right to be here.
I’ve been experimenting with Frater R.O’s concept of “The Box“. I don’t have one actually built yet (though I have plan in my head for building my own version soon) but I did hook my Michael Sun talisman up to an electrode on top of a Square of the Sun, with a loose wired LED propped up under the crystal just as “proof of principle”. This was my first experiment using a lighted scrying crystal. I found the experience all the more intensified. I took about a half hour to bask in the (literal) light of Michael while chanting the above Prayer of St.Michael over and over during the duration of this time until his presence was palpable. At this point the conjuration was only a formality. SO I conjured him as described in The White Work.
Michael appeared in the lighted crystal very strongly. This was an interesting and new experience with the lighted crystal. Michael always lets me know he is there by sucking the light out of the room. The candle flames are still physically visible, it just looks like they cast no light for a time. This only happens with Michael. I’ve kind of taken it as his signal.
What I did not expect is he did not come alone. There was another presence in the room, one from my past whom I thought I was pretty much done with, that being of course the Morning Star. I didn’t expect him to be here too. I asked Michael about it and got the equivalent of “just go with it”. So I did. I asked for the initiation into the sphere of the sun.
I was bathed with Sun Fire from both sources, Michael and Lucifer together. I was invigorated. After this I was given a vision of my sphere completely clear like shining glass or crystal, with various sigils burned into it, and at least one magic square, black in color, almost calligraphic. Michael told me these are designed to bring me into contact with my SA.
Wasting no time I used my handy-dandy astral vortex talisman (sorry I’ve been exposed to too much Blues-Clues) to open a gate to the sphere of the moon and entered my astral temple. It didn’t feel right to continue in my normal chamber, so I asked the spirit who’s been assigned there by Gabriel as custodian to prepare for me a suitable chamber, specifically to continue this work in for the duration. He did, and lead me to it. It was beautiful and solar. I began the Headless One invocation, which immediately triggered my Strategic Sorcery Joy body form, much to my own surprise yet again. I finished by leaving the temple and closing the gate to the Sphere of the Moon.
Notice how all the various paths I’ve studies recently are weaving together here? I think this is important. It indicated wholeness and integration. Everything coming together. No longer it is a matter of following this path or that path and compartmentalizing, just a magician using what he’s learned for the greater goal at hand.
That night I had a dream that I was being re-made by Michael and Lucifer together. It wasn’t a lucid dream, it had some regular dream-like story elements to it too. They took me out of my body, took me apart, re-made me, and put me stuffed me back in my body with the help of what I’ve come to know as a tribe of lunar spirits. Then in the dream I felt weird and uncomfortable as a human again, and was told that from that point on I was more a spiritual being than a physical one, thus the weirdness.
The next day
Since then I’ve felt much like I did after my Fire Initiation ritual. Totally fiery, passionate. So many dots are being connected that I never saw the correlations between now. Whats more is The Trident has been very close to me. Let’s just say we’ve had some chats, and I’ve also asked for advice from other humans ;).
This is totally unexpected. I had not planned on doing much more with the Primal Craft when I started on the Hermetic path.
Now I see the the capacity for balance however. I always talk about balance and how I need both celestial and chthonic. I see how I can make both work together. There is no dark and light, angels and demons are much the same thing. There simply is. One side need not be shunned for the other.
I’m not trying to say I have the one true way, it’s just I personally need both, YMMV. Thus while I continue to work on Hermetics, I’m also going to be returning to my Primal Craft studies with enthusiasm as well.
All of this happened and made total sense to me following this ritual. I think it totally worked ;). Damn, something certainly happened!
I continue to do the Headless One rite daily (It’s only been 3 days!) and have not had any palpable experiences with S.A. as of yet. If I do I’ll write abut it here (eventually).