Out of all the benefits of the path I find myself on (of which there are many), I can think of no greater aspect that I cherish more than my relationship with Hekate. Now, as I’ve written before, Hekate is popular right now. I never went looking for her. When she came to me I had no interest in a “Greek Goddess”. I barely even knew who she was. She picked me up when I was broken and rejected. I don’t know if it was all part of her plan or not (I would not be surprised), or if she just decided I was ripe for the picking at that moment. I can tell you, throughout every twist and turn of my path, from Asatru, to Druidry, to Witchcraft, and Hermetics (whew!), she has never left my side.
My loyalty to her is strong because of this. Even though my path has changed so much, my devotion to her has never wavered. These past few months she hasn’t been around much. One thing I’ve noticed about her is that she’s great at stepping back when there is something else you need to learn, or someone else who needs to teach it to you. When I sat before her altar and told her I was going to take some time to learn Hermetics she was supportive and basically told me she would be there if I needed her. I’ve kept my bi-monthly lunar rites to her during this time, but she hasn’t really played much into my day to day routine.
Every once in awhile I would check in. She once gave me an image of herself as a flame in my heart. That flame can either be spark or an all consuming fire, but she is there none the less. All that is different is her intensity. She would tell me she is there even though I can’t feel her, and to go learn and explore. Play and grow. And so I did.
I found other companions on the way. She has so many faces. In studying Hermetics I’ve fallen back on the Chaldean Oracles a lot more (not specifically Hermetic but definitely a precursor document). I’ve gotten to know The First Father, and she has a connection to him as well. She is the world soul with nature on her back and virtue pouring forth from her hip, and I see her as the Spiritus Mundi. Every time I think I have her figured out she comes to me with a different face. Hellenic Hecate? Sure she is there. Thracian mother goddess? Yup. She goes back even further to what I cannot guess.
After my Solar ritual she came back pretty strong to me (bringing a few of her friends). This time the face she showed me was purely the Primal Craft face. The Hekate I interact with through the Primal Craft books is much different than the one I interact with in a historical sense. Somehow more darker, baser, chthonic. She is still my Hekate, but the energy is much different. This is the face she has presented to me all week.
I have been a devotee of Hekate in many faces, many guises. All are correct all are her. When people argue over which one is correct I’m reminded of the cliche about the blind men and the elephant. Let me tell you, she is much bigger than any elephant! To me she is the personification of the balance I seek in my own path. She is the beautiful torchbearer of the Empyrean realms, and the dark chthonic queen of the infernal. What better patron is there for one who seeks to know both realms?
So now she’s come back with full force. To me she remains the world soul of the Chaldean Oracles, somewhat akin to the Sophia. She remains the Hellenic Hekate who is honored by hymn and wine. She remains the goddess of Witchcraft who is honored at the crossroads with the smoldering sacrifice of black pup. She remains the dark wholly unknowable figure of the Primal Craft. For the longest time every day I would look at my Hekate devotional necklace hanging on my mirror and not be able to bring myself to put it on. Lately I haven’t been able to leave the room in the morning without it.
Like all relationships, there is ebb and flow. Sometimes they are just a whisper in your ear, other times a roaring shout. Sometimes just a spark, sometimes a raging flame. For now I am glad to have her company again, in whatever form she shows herself to me as. When asked which form is the real Hekate, I say they all are. She is way too big to fit into any one preconceived mold, ancient or modern. She is simply Hekate and comes to us as she wishes.